It's official. Life sucks and the world is filled with stupid people. Still doing the deadshift, crappy part was that I had to go back to work in the evening to get some important papers that needed to be signed. If it weren't for me asking about them, might have had to wait another two months or something like that.
Anyway, going back to what I was talking about... too late... forgot.
Well, I've been on a roller coaster ride of emotion, but getting some normality (mostly because I've been listening to music and watching series and animes).
I've been a bit thoughtful on the situation of a friend. She's been having problems at home and is thinking about leaving home and getting her own place (living with parents currently). And due to her problems, I think it would be a good idea if she got her own place. But talked with a friend we have in common, and we've both come to the same conclusion that she should get at least a job first, but I can't bring that up to her, as she's been looking for a job for the last year (if not counting the other 3 before that... which I'm not because there was a break in between). Either way, I believe it is a good thing that she can get her own place (apparently she found one and now has to decide on telling the rest of the family), but I also think that she should try and get a job before she does that. The tourist season here has already opened so there should be plenty of opportunities to get a job but time are difficult. So, I'm not sure how that is going to go.
I am a bit annoyed, because I told her that I'd call her this morning, but I was tired and the phone was almost dead, so I put the phone to charge and while I was waiting for a decent hour to call her and the phone to charge, I fell asleep. But first thing I did when I woke up was let her know that I'd have fallen asleep and that if she still wanted me to call her, to let me know. She said she would, she had news but that she was going for lunch and would let me know when to call her. Didn't receive anything until late in the evening/night, when I was already at work, that she'd found a place and that now she had to find a way to tell her parents. I'm pretty sure it's just nonsense but I still find it annoying that if some one offers to call and you tell them that you'll let them know, that you don't and that when they can't call you, you text them saying what you have to say. Annoying and a bit rude. I'll get over it over the weekend... (mostly because I'll be sleeping comfortably in me bed).
Another friend said that I was being grumpy. Might be true... not sure. I am a bit passive and in a "I don't give a fuck" mood most of this week, but I believe that is because I see how things are.
I've had 1 month and 20 days off work and don't have anything to show for that except an empty bank account. But since I've been off work till now, I've been a bit bummed out because everyone I know has something to do, a side project or some kind of activity they do, almost daily if not weekly. But I've been just sitting there watching and seeing that everybody is doing something. And after getting depressed, annoyed, angry and fed up about the situation, now I'm just passive. I no longer care what the others are up. This might be why some think I'm grumpy or mean or whatever, but I just don't care about others anymore. I used to be the one always there for anyone and always getting in touch with friends to find out how they are, but after this time that I've just watched everyone do something and have a direction in their lives, I've come to the conclusion that I'm alone and that nobody actually needs or cares what I do. So in conclusion, I no longer care what others are up to and no longer go chasing them to know how they are or what they are up to. I'm pretty sure that if they want me to know something, they know how to get in touch with me. This is why I've been successful in disconnecting from social media. I just leave messages to people and when they get the time, or feel like it, they'll reply. If not well, that's that.
Damn... finished all the work I had to do... now, I'm just sleepy >_<
Well, nothing much to do but check out some new music...
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